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Wanted to write this yesterday, but I did not want people to think I’ve gone mad or played a 1st April prank on them.

OK, so…I am angry and disappointed with my friends. There are a couple of honourable exceptions, but everyone else SUCKS, more or less. They have huge egos, their word has to be the last word, they’re all dependent on someone or something and the most of them ignored what happened to my dad last Sunday and don’t think that something else that has been happening recently, something with a very very sad ending from my point of view, was a big deal.

That would be it.

I am serious. I don’t like some aspects of real, or, let’s be more precise, realistic life. This month I had more than a teaspoon of it, perhaps a whole soup spoon and I don’t think I enjoy it. Why? Because it brings me extreme nervouse, a fairly visible amount of anxiety, a strange need to eat more and sleep more and…blah, whatever I’m talking about, it’s not for me. Or, if it is, it was meant to happen sometime else, involving some other people. There was an evening this month I will always remember, as something that has never happened before, but after that day, everything went downhill. No damage was done to me physically, but mentally, I ‘ve been a-bombed. It’s not for your ears, mostly. I might explain my LiveJournal friends what did (not) happen and how DUMB I’m feeling at the moment. Doubt it will change.

On a happier note, the new RHCP video can be found online as it’s unfortunately not being aired here in Europe yet. I soo want a better quality version, as this is jaggedy. So, what you’re about to see is the band in ghetto and, as always, John is adorable. This was recorded in the second half of November 2006, I guess, as his hair was maybe only 1cm longer in Vienna in December (trust me, I was 1 metre away from the man!) and, well, I so did NOT expect him to play dice, jump rope, get a head massage and be slapped in the face by a woman..also, switching roles in the video is priceless.

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And check the comments on that video on YouTube, someone asked if that was Justin Timberlake playing guitar. Errrm, no way, Justin is not that charming, definitely not that emotional either and I doubt he could ever pull out REAL falsetto. Sorry to all you bubblegum-pop fans, but John Frusciante is two thousand light years away in front of Justin Timberlake.

There will be a little server move occuring here one of these days. Yes, again. And, before I was notified about this, I went on to check what’s up with my hostees and realised that a couple of them have moved or closed and that a guy who has not talked to me in more than a year is using the webspace that used to belong to his website as image hosting space. How charming, how very freakin’ charming. So, on this note I would like to thank people who did tell me they were leaving and to thank Marie, Felicia and Vera for being amazing hostees. Wherever I go, I’ll bring the three of you along with myself! And hosting shall be closed for everyone else, I believe.

Spring has arrived today, too. Today at 1 in the morning. For the last time on 21st March in Europe. Next year 21st March will be the second day of springs, but who knows where we’ll all be in 366 days time?

First of all, thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday. Thanks to people who were with me on that day. Thanks to everyone I know who’d wished it to me much later, even those who have forgotten it.

It’s wintermarch, at least for a couple of more days. March in winter, a winter in March. I feel like writing some poetry. I kissed a billboard on a tram station yesterday. I certainly know everything, but I have a slight feeling that I don’t know anything, absolutely anything. My state of mind at the moment appears to be rather strange, just like my newly-installed Windows on a reformatted HD, I will leave that for some other occasion.

For now, I shall leave you with this billboard:

It’s my birthday today! I am 24 years old!
I usually hate my birthday because unexpected weird things tend to happen on 03rd March, almost like in novels…but this year I’m somehow happy. The last year started as the worst ever and it ended up being amazingly good in some spheres of life (while it remained disappointing in others… e.g. studying and university and one other thing I don’t like mentioning). In July, everything I was doing and planning went downhill, one of my biggest holiday plans failed, I lost one of my best friends and I don’t think I’ll ever get her back. After that, almost everything changed for the better but the damage has been done.

The highlights would definitely be getting two amazing jobs: the web design one for a rather famous company and the one for Lush (that one is web design too and Lush is famous, but you get the idea) and my trip to Vienna in December and seeing…OK, the true highlight was the moment when John Frusciante himself smiled to me and actually stayed there and waited to smile to me again when I took my head out of my hands and stopped giggling like a cat chick from a Tom and Jerry cartoon. And you know me, you know I don’t appreciate it because he’s a rock star, I appreciate it simply because it’s him and I adore him!

The other most beautiful moment of the year was the hug a couple of hours later when one of my best friends literally jumped on me after the same concert. I think the band members actually saw her get out of the sidestage area to the first row and hug me so tightly that she almost cracked my bones…and I thought I hugged her tightly the first time we saw each other in real life, two days before that. I want to make her a tribute entry, the same way I did to the certain collegue and a pretendent to the friend qualification a couple of weeks ago, but I will do that on 17th March, as it will have been 3 years from the day we bumped into each other on that day. 3 long years.

Oh yes, people? I met so many cool people during the time I was 23. So many cool people and a couple of INCREDIBLE IDIOTS who don’t even deserve a mention. Those idiots tore me apart, turned me upside down but the cool people of the past, present of future were always there to help me and put a smile on my face. I cannot recall a moment when I was completely alone and helpless because there wasn’t such a moment.

Special thanks to Jovana and Milica for being the people who turned into close friends whom I trust a lot and one year ago, to me they were just random passerbys in the sea of internet.

Plans for today? Do some work as birthdays are definitely not non-working holidays. Go to one of the Lush stores because a couple of veeery mysterious smiling co-workers insisted that I should come. And my mom is making a very special lunch…I asked for musaka, I will get roasted chicken and potatoes because it’s, as she says, more special, but I do not complain, I love both. And on Monday, I am inviting some people out.

Following Danube To Its Best
Red Hot Chili Peppers are coming to Serbia in June!
Red Hot Chili Peppers are coming to Serbia in June!
Red Hot Chili Peppers are coming to Serbia in June!

I just had to say it three times. It sounds so good that I have to repeat it and maybe I am also repeating it because it’s like a dream come true out of the blue. I’m getting my ticket tomorrow and I will post a pic of it. The event is called Green Fest and it will be held near the town called Inđija on 26th June, hence this entry’s title. Some friends told me there are huge billboards in some parts of Beograd already, but I haven’t seen one here in the centre yet…as soon as I do, I am aiming my Canon S2IS at it.

Screw-up
The computer is still screwed-up. I will have to reformat, before I actually lose my data. Lucky that I got a laptop although I’m not a big fan of them. I hope some people will understand what was happening to both my computer and my back (I’m due to a specialist check next week, it could be more from a sprained nerve and I am worried…

Back. I have things to explain to people, especially to one of my bosses. I so hope he will understand because, well, I adore my job and I don’t want to lose it less than two months after I got it!

-My internet wasn’t working properly for 2 weeks and my email wasn’t responding properly. I think it was a server change with my main ISP and sudden refusals of mails from other account…either that or I had a virus. Now it finally works, I didn’t lose my address book and stuff, but I am having problems with sound on my computer…every once in a while I get the following screen of death and then my sound is gone and unless I reboot, the computer is MUTE. Don’t ask me why I don’t reformat…I have so much work to do and it would take up too much time and, also, I have no idea where the CD with the soundcard drivers is.

-I have something too…I don’t know if it’s a virus, but ever since a small cold I had at the end of January, I’ve been having pain under my left shoulder. It hurts all the time, which is hard to believe, but it does! The most of the time it’s like pain in the bottom from injections…but my back is definitely not my bottom and I had no injections, so this is sick…dealing with constant back pain for three weeks. In the end, looks like I’ll have to go to the doctor and I hate doctors because lately they were just screwing up every single diagnosis.

I’ll post a decent entry tomorrow or something. Need to email a bunch of people and explain them what was happening!